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Europe, here I come!

Okay, unfortunately, I'm not going to Europe...yet! But I'm expecting it to be my 18th birthday celebration/gift. Haha. I'm starting to plan it already. 2011, spring, April to May, would be the ideal time for me to go. Now, my only problem would be finding someone to backpack around Europe with.

It would cost a lot of money and I mean... A LOT. But it's worth it, right?

Geez. I'm so addicted to this EuroTrip thing. :| Hope my parents want to see me cross this off my list of things to do before I die. They would make me very HAPPY. :D *hint hint*

I lie...

Because I don't want to feel regret.

Pandesal for breakfast!

Since I started uni, I haven't eaten breakfast. I would wake up at 6 in the morning and just rush to get myself ready. My class starts at 7am so I don't have time to eat; until now. My class starts at 1 in the afternoon today! Hell yeah! Breakfast here I come! :D

Hot pandesal is so yummy. The outside is crunchy while the inside is oh so soft! Definitely the perfect breakfast after weeks of not eating the most important meal of the day. Anyway, enough about food. What's been happening to me lately? Well, let's see.

I'm still 16 (thank God).

My birthday's coming up (oh no)!

I have a long test today, bummer.

I want to go shopping for new clothes.

I don't have money.

I'll do anything to have money.

I'm being a bum.

I have to study.

I'm still hungry.

There's this cute guy in uni. Haha. :D

So far, my life is pretty stagnant. It sucks. I know.

Chocolate, anyone?

They say life is a box of chocolates. You don't know what you're going to get.

Today, I entered the chocolate store. People kept bumping into me as they grab their treats. I wasn't very fond of crowded places or the boisterous sound of adults or children talking and laughing and talking. Even the sounds of dogs barking and cats purring annoy me.

But today, I felt the urge to buy a box and see what the fuss is all about. I never tasted chocolate before. Never in my life have I allowed myself to buy the sweets but that is about to change. So despite the sweaty bodies colliding to my own, I braved it out and grabbed the first piece of chocolate box I've seen.

When I arrived home, I sat on my couch and opened the box. There were rows and rows of chocolates with different wrappings and I assumed different flavors. But the golden wrapping struck me the most so I took one and placed the box on the table.

I felt my heart race in anticipation. Slowly, I pealed off the wrapping. What would this chocolate taste like? Would it taste like heaven melted in my mouth? Or would it taste revolting?

I took a large bite and closed my eyes. My face scrunched up in distaste. I ran to the trash can and spit it out. There’s an aftertaste lingering in my mouth and I can’t help but feel frustrated and angry.

The half-eaten chocolate is still in my hand. I stared at it wondering what I’m going to do. Should I just throw it in the trash and try another one, hoping this time it would be sweet and savory just like it says on the box?

I didn’t.

I took another bite but this time I was careful not to take a large one. I barely scrape my teeth against it. Although that was enough for as I swiped my tongue across my teeth, I immediately felt my lips curling into a smile.

The second layer of the chocolate is sweet

I savored it; licking the chocolate bit by bit as I took in the milky sweet taste. However, I was not known for my patience because the very next action I took brought me a sense of vileness and despair. I had wish for more of the milky sweetness but alas! Life does not want me to have it.

A disgusting aroma filled the air, I let out a breath and it smelled like liquor. I hate liquor. It stained my mouth and I coughed and coughed as it burned my throat raw. My head experienced a feeling of lightheadedness. Minute by minute, I felt my eyes droop ever so slightly. The taste of the chocolate lay forgotten.

They say life is like a box of chocolates. You never know what you’re going to get. Today, I got a bittersweet chocolate filled with brandy and I hope I never get to taste it again. 

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Interpretation: I have tried and tried to be patient with my sister but I wanted to try and defend myself for once so I took a chance. I got into a fight with her; that was the bitter vile disgusting taste. The sweet taste was my brother comforting me when I was crying. (He’s super sweet!) The brandy thing, I felt when my brother left my room and I lay there and cried myself to sleep. It was the most heart-wrenching thing I have ever done. Now, I’m awake and I have puffy eyes. Remind me never to try it again. 

I'm the future freak!

There are times when I wonder if I plan for the future too much. 

Just this week, I've been obsessed with planning for my "Eurotrip 2012". I've thoroughly researched about packing tips, hostels, places I want to go to, etc. I've even created a packing list and a day-to-day itinerary already. Talk about excited (insert laugh here)!

But seriously, I know it's great to be prepared for the future and to plan for it. However, is it bad to be "too much" prepared? Do we all need to leave some "free" time for spontaneity?

Don't get me wrong. I'm not the type of person to make hourly schedules and follow them strictly. I love being impulsive. I go with the flow and wherever the winds take me. (Once again, I'm using a lot of artsy phrases but who cares? It's just you and me anyway.)

I've reflected a lot on what it means and being the great self-proclaimed psychologist that I am I declare myself a hater of the present. Though, ironically, I don't hate my past. Which is weird because my present now would be my past tomorrow.. And should I hate my future because it will be my present later? 

Okay, I'm confusing myself. Let's pause.

Okay, resume.

The point is. Actually, I don't know what the point is. But I guess, this "issue" is just another block in my path to self-discovery or something.. When I started writing this, I actually thought I had everything figured out. I had this plan on what to write and everything but I guess these are the times when uncertainty pops into my head and leaves more questions for me to answer. So, when I finally have the answer, I'll post it here again, though I have a big feeling I would soon forget about this.

Do you feel the same way? Come on, press the little button and leave a comment. :)

Michelle Lim

I attended Michelle Lim's fashion show and thank God I was in the front row 'cause I forgot my glasses. Well, anyway, the collection was okay. There were a lot of monotone dresses. I wish she incorporated two to three colors in a dress or even two to three tones of the same color in a dress. But anyway, had fun still. Here are my fave clothes from her collection.

I'm seeing a lot of ballerina and one-shoulder dresses this season. It's not my cup of tea but I want to try and incorporate those trends in my style.